I have been toldâ¦.that this skaking occurs as the first outward sign that displays during my RBD episodesâ¦
I sometimes wake up during this timeâ¦..and 'I' knowâ¦.
I believeâ¦.that sometimes this 'time' is the same 'time' as the 'freeze' time in really bad RBD episodesâ¦.
Let me explainâ¦..during fight or flightâ¦..in the dreamsâ¦.they are using are saving 'your' lifeâ¦.not mineâ¦..sometimes mineâ¦.
butâ¦.sometimes in the saving 'my' lifeâ¦..(going by most vivid memories I recall)â¦.I 'freeze'â¦.
unable to 'fight' or 'flight'â¦..
this freeze is similar to the freeze I have with vocalization when awake?
ieâ¦.the freeze while I am awake is thought to be that neuron channel unavailable at that momentâ¦.and the brain 'freezes' unable to perform the demanded requestâ¦..
sometimes I recover and am able to complete the actionâ¦.sometimes I am not ableâ¦.stuck repeating that freeze over and overâ¦â¦
sometimes after a while I recover and can do what I intended to doâ¦..
when I come out of the 'freeze'â¦.I am lostâ¦..not lostâ¦..I still know where I amâ¦..I know I wanted to get something doneâ¦.butâ¦.that momentâ¦.is goneâ¦.the intent is gone, because i don't remember what the thought was anymoreâ¦.
soâ¦..back to RBDâ¦..freezesâ¦..
I wonderâ¦..if the RBD freeze is a similar eventâ¦.
that neuron channel isn't availableâ¦..and likewise to being awakeâ¦.the brain can't perform the requested demandâ¦.and I am stuckâ¦..in the 'freeze' in RBDâ¦â¦
so, during the RBD episodeâ¦..a 'normal' RBD episode would be my physical actions during sleep would and 'DO' mimic what I am dreamingâ¦.
soâ¦this skaking, is mimicking my 'dream' with accurate physical actions during my sleepâ¦..
my dreamâ¦..is frozeâ¦..and repeatingâ¦..
soâ¦..take one more stepâ¦..
the times that it wakes me at this timeâ¦..
the 'freeze' is so VIOLENT' â¦..
that is it is waking me up from sleepâ¦..
some of the memories of thisâ¦..
is at the moment of â¦..attemptingâ¦â¦ATTEMPTINGâ¦.to pull the triggerâ¦..
to kickâ¦..this is a common oneâ¦.
to plunge the knife intoâ¦.the bad guyâ¦..
â¦.EDIT: to add: I have distinct memories of this freeze moment that wakes me upâ¦.duplicates the awake oneâ¦.ieâ¦.I am attempting to thrust the knifeâ¦.but it is not movingâ¦.or not moving very muchâ¦.or it is pushing backâ¦..and the exertion to complete the action in my RBD episode then wakes me upâ¦..with ************** A VERY VIOLENT ACTIONâ¦â¦OF ONE OF MY LIMBS, MIMICKING THE ACTION I WAS ATTEMPTING IN THE DREAMâ¦..
or the most common oneâ¦.is attempting to kickâ¦.and not being able toâ¦.very frustrating...
â¦.since I can't see the effect of it landingâ¦..
â¦â¦there are some that are missing outâ¦.not talking to meâ¦..
time is limitedâ¦.
there is an urgencyâ¦.
those around meâ¦.don't get itâ¦..
â¦..the increase dose of donepezilâ¦.and the addition (again) of Provilgilâ¦..is making such a differentâ¦.
â¦..it also is increasing all the bad effects of my diseaseâ¦.tradeoffsâ¦and the insight to recognize themâ¦.
EDIT: Just had another thoughtâ¦.since this is what wife said was first sign of RBD espisode to 'Her'â¦..
could it beâ¦.that the freeze moment in a 'regular' â¦.REM dreamâ¦â¦is the 'TRIGGER' to flip to RBD dream episodeâ¦..
soâ¦.lets go science fiction for a momentâ¦.
if this was the triggerâ¦..for RBDâ¦.a 'freeze' momentâ¦.
if the neuron channel could be reroutedâ¦.like switching a train to a side trackâ¦..
â¦..I am sure someone is working on thatâ¦..
just dreamingâ¦..delusions of fixing itâ¦.
Isn't aricept type agentsâ¦.for 'improving' the neuron flow?
soâ¦.this pipe dreamâ¦.is to rechannel itâ¦â¦
soâ¦..I guess the question would beâ¦.where to make connections?
then, leave them in place? or make them dynamic?
of course I realise, this could be a physical or a chemical connectionâ¦.
which I assume aricept type agent to be chemical connection enhancerâ¦.
what if we could floatâ¦..chemical agent bridge connectorsâ¦..sort of standby chemical agentsâ¦.
would have to pass brain barrierâ¦.
soâ¦.I can still dream while awake tooâ¦
there is so much going on in this mindâ¦.and I sit here aloneâ¦.a shameâ¦.